Just found out I didn’t get a job I didn’t want.

So why does it still hurt?

An Update

I just got back from ten days in L.A.  I was there for interviews and meetings, and an audition managed to sneak on to my itinerary as well, but most of my time was spent in my rental car driving from the east side to the west, back east, back west, back east. I drove the following highways: the 2, 5, 10, 101, 105, 110, 134, and the 405.   Things that kept me sane: a working GPS, great podcasts (Never Not Funny, Adam Corolla, Comedy and Everything Else, Planet Money), my awesome friends, doing shows (5), hiking in Griffith Park, Pure Iced Blendeds, and AA meetings.  I had to stay two more days than I’d originally planned, and there were a few days there when I felt like I’d never make it back to Brooklyn.  I’m so glad to be home.  

I don’t know what’s going to happen next.  I might be moving back west, I might be staying right where I am.  I might be working on a new show, or coming up with my own show, or writing a movie, or short stories, or I have no idea.  I don’t even know what I want to happen.   I’ve never felt so comfortable being so uncertain, and it’s been incredibly liberating.  I really enjoyed every interview (except for one) and the audition* and I just know in my heart that whatever happens will be for the best.  Some decisions are out of my control (like the budget one that put me in this position in the first place) but what really matters are the thousand small decisions I make on a daily basis.  

No matter what, I’m thrilled to be home.  What’s home for now, at least.

*they called my manager to “put a pin” in me.  That means they’re interested in a couple of us for the role, and they’re checking on our availability for those dates. Very preliminary, but it feels great to know that I did a good enough job to still be in consideration.  And now it’s just another decision that’s out of my control.  

Today's News

Good News:  I was asked to audition for a new, really funny show on HBO.  My manager didn’t submit me, they requested me specifically.

Bad News:  The part requires nudity.

Not News:  Not gonna do it.

I may be in a terrible mood.

Just saw a commercial for “In Plain Sight” on USA.  This was the annoying/lazy joke they highlighted that demonstrates why I’ll never watch this fucking show.

Guy star: I feel like I’m in a movie.

Lady star: Let me guess, “Clueless”?

Guy star: I was going to say “The Taming of the Shrew.”

 Technically, sure “The Taming of the Shrew” was a movie — it was the movie version of the SHAKESPEARE PLAY.  So the reason that joke doesn’t quite work is because it’s bent as hell, and the writers should have worked harder to find a different movie, or a different set-up altogether.  Aaaarfghrlfrr.